Stand(ret)ards!!

Am I scared of doing something new? something different? I wonder and my thoughts wander. It has been quite sometime now. I have been in this "self-realization" mode!! I start my mornings with a banging knock on the brain - "hello!! Anybody in there?? What exactly are you?? err I mean who exactly are you?? What the hell do you want out of life??". The knock becomes a reality check - "do i really have a brain?? I haven't seen it till now!!! Hmmm fishy". That's when I realize I prefer starting my mornings with shit!

I have been following standards till now. Oh yes! As a kid I went to the best of the play schools. In school I managed to always be within the first three ranks (now, it doesn't really matter. Back then I was crazy about collecting certificates!! Damn, I should have made it my hobby!) . In college I got freaked out thinking about campus interviews. I attended the first campus interview and got selected. Happiness spread all over.Losing interest in studies; I managed to be the topper of my department ( and I didn't even know it till my uncle called me up on the day of convocation).Finally, got a job and I am settled - that's what people told me. But I keep asking myself - what next??

I am immature. I am 25 years old. I get bored easily. Settling down with a job which never really caught my interest (though I always manage to get a good name, ah self-booster :D) made me think more. I realized that following standards has made my life Monotonous. I am living a live which gives definition to the word Monotonous. I have ended up doing what others do and others ended up doing what others do!! Oh no!! Somebody save me.

Is there anybody out there who is trying to get out of standardization? Gosh, Am I trying to create a standard now????